If I can support him You will too, will You not ?
Nouman says I love you mommy I love you daddy.
What is life like without a child ?
Part of him being such a good boy is that its in his gene. Through his father.. and of course the way he brought him up.
InsyaAllah we can get through this. I still remember the night where I saw him in teary eyes thinking about the future with our son. How they will learn Quran together, and hope for the best to the masjid and community we are living in.
In distant memories he too, was always like that when I had him in my belly.
Oh how humane. How righteous a man. How his heart is full of love. How his actions full of good deeds. In the sea of people, unknown to eachother. As ethics standard change. Moral compass broken. Materialistic and self interest pursuits. Where life is about gains, relationships are transactional. Its bizarre and praise to Him, that I found my beacon of light. Just like Allah's word is my beackon of light.
I want to be a beackon of light.
I feel reckless. greedy and very ungrateful most times.
If I can support him You will too, will You not ?
My heart aches. Im crying helpless. Overcomed with uncertainly, faithlessness and shame.
How can I submit fully if I dont have faith in our future ?
How can I think, without our double income you'd allow me to lose myself and that You wont provide me and my family sufficient ? How can I be this afraid of the outcome of our decisions ?
What is life like without a child ?
Part of him being such a good boy is that its in his gene. Through his father.. and of course the way he brought him up.
InsyaAllah we can get through this. I still remember the night where I saw him in teary eyes thinking about the future with our son. How they will learn Quran together, and hope for the best to the masjid and community we are living in.
In distant memories he too, was always like that when I had him in my belly.
Oh how humane. How righteous a man. How his heart is full of love. How his actions full of good deeds. In the sea of people, unknown to eachother. As ethics standard change. Moral compass broken. Materialistic and self interest pursuits. Where life is about gains, relationships are transactional. Its bizarre and praise to Him, that I found my beacon of light. Just like Allah's word is my beackon of light.
I want to be a beackon of light.
I feel reckless. greedy and very ungrateful most times.
If I can support him You will too, will You not ?
My heart aches. Im crying helpless. Overcomed with uncertainly, faithlessness and shame.
How can I submit fully if I dont have faith in our future ?
How can I think, without our double income you'd allow me to lose myself and that You wont provide me and my family sufficient ? How can I be this afraid of the outcome of our decisions ?
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