In between paths still.
America..
you have taught me so much.
Most of all about my self.
How greedy I was. How easily unsatisfied. How always in a rush backed by a false reason to be better.
There were alot of areas that I was never good at. Come to think of everything I had and gone through. Allah swt himself has always taken care of me and had given me much more than I deserve.
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At times I always find myself inquiring, whether I can make it not in an organization. In a state of bliss like now its clear which path I needed to take. To obtain my freedom. To produce.
In another vision, I thought of becoming where I want to be. In a prominent organization somewhere. Doing something big. Then I realize, its just a scaling of what I used to have. The intrinsic. The difficulties. The conflicts. The dramas. The inspiration that comes along with. Or maybe a slight less.
I dont want to be caught up in a corporation doing harm. Squeezing in every penny, over excite markets with its internal dramas. I dont want to have spillover effects onto my husband and my children from what I am incapable of mentally handling it myself. I have let so much of thinking of others that it has that big a power over me. And that the time, exhaust was much greater than the physical hours I spent. Hours that werent productive of myself I should say.
I only got this life. Please ya Allah, guide me through. To be the best to my families, my community, my country and to my religion.
you have taught me so much.
Most of all about my self.
How greedy I was. How easily unsatisfied. How always in a rush backed by a false reason to be better.
There were alot of areas that I was never good at. Come to think of everything I had and gone through. Allah swt himself has always taken care of me and had given me much more than I deserve.
...
At times I always find myself inquiring, whether I can make it not in an organization. In a state of bliss like now its clear which path I needed to take. To obtain my freedom. To produce.
In another vision, I thought of becoming where I want to be. In a prominent organization somewhere. Doing something big. Then I realize, its just a scaling of what I used to have. The intrinsic. The difficulties. The conflicts. The dramas. The inspiration that comes along with. Or maybe a slight less.
I dont want to be caught up in a corporation doing harm. Squeezing in every penny, over excite markets with its internal dramas. I dont want to have spillover effects onto my husband and my children from what I am incapable of mentally handling it myself. I have let so much of thinking of others that it has that big a power over me. And that the time, exhaust was much greater than the physical hours I spent. Hours that werent productive of myself I should say.
I only got this life. Please ya Allah, guide me through. To be the best to my families, my community, my country and to my religion.
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